Friday, November 09, 2007

True Confessions

The last couple of posts have been half-assed, citing my lack of energy. Well honestly, that's what I *thought* was the reason.

Turns out - I can trace it back to the fact that unbeknowst to anyone else, I'm basically a very shy introverted person with a serious lack of self esteem, stemming from my inability to get approval from my father, which manifested itself in thinking I'm not worthy of compliments or of anything good that happens in my life. This, caused me to compensate by putting on the outer facade of confident-woman/super-mom, thus giving others the false impression that I am a talented, outgoing, vivacious person who can accomplish anything, which, of course, manifested itself (a la The Secret) in me having a super fabulous year, accomplishing everything I wanted, since apparently my subconscious believed the impression I was projecting to everyone else.

So, here I am with an embarrassment of accomplishments and opportunities, and with what feels like an endless number of things to blog about - something akin to the old addage "Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it!" At the same time though, the shy introvert in me just wants to crawl under the covers and dissapear into a book because I'm overwhelmed by the endless number of things to blog about!




8 comments:

Mrs. G. said...

Uh, could you throw a few of those blog ideas my way because I am seriously running out of ideas. When is this month over?

URBAN PEDESTRIAN said...

Um - so are there two people writing this blog, now? And are they both called Linda? Because that's going to get confusing. maybe you could talk about each other and that way it won't look like braggin by extrovert Linda and it will be a lot easier also for introvert Linda to talk about someone else. Er. OK. Good luck with all that.

Linda said...

I'm never sure how to comment back to a comment, but UP, if you read this... That's EXACTLY what I was thinking after I wrote that! Very perceptive - not that I'm Sybil or anything...
Well, maybe I am
No, no I'm definitely not
OK, yeah
Um...

Kristy said...

Endless number of things to blog about? What a great problem to have! I'm about to go out and buy a bag of fortune cookies just so they can guest host on my blog. Hope the dry spell ends soon.

Sacred Suzie said...

It's hard when, as an introvert, you put yourself "out there" which is completely out of your comfort zone. The good news is if you get some private time to yourself to recover and rebalance, you can get back out there if you want. Retreating every now and then is necessary for us introverts!

Good for you for really putting yourself out there and manifesting all that positive change and power.

URBAN PEDESTRIAN said...

Not only do I read the comments made back about my comments; I also then proceed to comment on THOSE comments. It's all part of my obsessive need to have the last word.

URBAN PEDESTRIAN said...

Not only do I read the comments on my comments; I then proceed to comment on THOSE comments. It's all part of my obessive need to have the last word

firewings said...

I've had that happen too as an introvert finding oneself suddenly in a situation with so much happening and yet just being zapped from the energy it takes to maintain something that you don't feel inside. You're not alone!